Getting Three Series

Reaching the age of 30 soon literally indicates that I will soon need to face a turning point in life.

REALLY, ABBY?!

Well, some said that while others might not even care about it, at all.

The feeling being a little bit aging surely must be there, the anxiety of not celebrating it like-you’re-just-turning-17 .. of course, would not be there as well dan macam-macam lagi¬†‘ketidakselesaan’ yang bermain di benak hati dan fikiran.

What should be worried about getting 30? Can anyone specifically, briefly tell me the reason why and why, please?

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Like selalu yang aku tulis dalam setiap kali hashtag yang macam susah-sangat-la-nak-hadam-bila-menginjak-umur (#enteringthreeseries & #inbigdenial), sebenarnya ya .. itulah yang lubuk dalam hati aku ini duk menjeruk rasa bila mana mengenangkan tarikh July 21 will be approaching soon, no matter what.

What’s so big about getting 30? Well, in my terms & conditions .. I shouldn’t have to contain so much of that anxiety because:

  1. I’m a 30-year-old mother to two beautiful pair of children. Sebaik-baik anugerah dan pemberianNya yang tidak boleh disangkal lagi kelebihan, be one.
  2. Blisfully married to a good, loyal, modest husband. Alhamdulilah for being given the chance to go through thick and thin, together.
  3. Stable in career, position and satisfaction of producing news & articles’ piece ( … well, more to achieve but slowly).
  4. Own a house, already. But of course, not sufficient enough.
  5. Travelled to several countries too, checked. Of course, this isn’t sufficient too because more is merrier to enhance the knowledge.
  6. ….
  7. ….

What else? Those points are a little bit too general, I guess. Nothing specific that’s fancy for me to state all of them here, so *peace*.

Tentu ada banyak lagi yang hendak dicapai. But there’s always the word ‘INSUFFICIENT’ there.

Dan dalam banyak-banyak keinginan dan ketidaktentuan hala menjengah umur ke angka 30 ini, terkadang … adalah lebih baik direnung apa yang aku dah capai dan punya hari ini, daripada merungut dengan apa yang aku tidak punya dan belum lagi dapat gapai (buat masa ini).

Because, things for sure is that … we can never compare our Chapter 1 with someone’s Chapter 20.

Perbandingan yang sentiasa didesak hati dan kemahuan akal yang kadang-kadang hanyalah bersandarkan emosi semata-mata adalah terlalu bahaya untuk diturutkan.

Keduanya, why must you compare? We can always work on our plan regardless of anyone’s chapters sekalipun. Thus, bertenang dan cuba tarik nafas dalam dan appreciate those we have and the one that we care. Itu rasanya lebih baik, lebih sihat.

Setuju?

Apapun, let’s hope my version of celebrating 30-year-old birthday is the most happening, lovely and memorable (hope ajalah). Paling tidak, sebaik-baik pinjaman yang Tuhan berikan sehingga ke hari ini, pada tahun ini juga sudah cukup besar rahmat.

No regrets, at all.

Hopefully juga the #indenial phase won’t prolong much.

Sebab sedangkan sekarang pun, hati tetap memikirkan diri ini sweet 21, di mana-mana dan bila-bila masa.

Phewit!